So now a year later, here I am. I've made it through a horrific surgery and hysterectomy. A cancer scare turned out to be just that. Chase is living with his dad now, but we finally have doctors helping us with his issues, and he is finally getting back to his sweet happy self. We have been in our home for almost a year now and so thankful for that. And as I think about this Sunday, the only thing I can think of is I am just so thankful that I have this Sunday to be here for. I didn't think I would be here; I truly didn't. And I guess, I just wanted to take the time somehow to capture my thoughts on what being a mom means to me.
I have joked with each of you reading this, or even cried with you at some point about how we all feel like we have failed as moms. Did I mess up this? Did I mess up that? Did I do them wrong by this? Did I do them wrong by that? Stay at home? Work? Don't Work? Day care? Home School? No School? Long Hair? Who Cares? What????? So many things we worry about every minute of every day. But at the end of the day, I look at all of our kids and I know without a doubt that they are loved and they know they are loved. I just hope and pray they will always remember that! So here are just a few thoughts for each of my kids. I hope you will indulge me.
What Abbie Loves: Her Frenz, Her Phone, Music, Dancing, Boyz, Her Dog, Her Family
My Favorite Moment: My "Mom" Hug & Kiss every time she comes home...Never misses one!
My WISH for Abbie: That she will find her own way. That she will become the beautiful young woman inside her. That she will continue to be my friend. That she will know I will be here for her through the good and the bad.
What Connor Loves: Basketball, Skateboarding, Dogs, Vets, Jazz, Playing Guitar
My Favorite Moment: Playing "Mario Party 8" Alone with Connor
My WISH for Connor: That he will grow up to be a strong, independent adult. That he will always lead by example to his brothers and his friends. That he will be a hard worker like his dad. That he will value marriage and his wife like his dad does. That he will never stop laughing.
What Cydnee Loves: Monkees, Dancing, Art, Dolls, Anything Pink, Anything High School Musical or Hannah Montana
My Favorite Moment: My special notes, art work, and colorful letters on my whiteboard in my office.
My WISH for Cydnee: That she will grow up with a very strong sense of self. That she will have the belief in herself to do whatever she puts her mind up to do. That she will have love in her heart as strong as does today...tomorrow. That she will know how much I love her. That she will know I will be her best friend forever.
What Chase Loves: Riding his Scooter, Skateboarding, Golfing, Fishing, Playing Video Games, BYU
My Favorite Moment: Snuggling with Chase during Family Movie Night
My WISH for Chase: That he always press forward. That he always realize what a wonderful and sweet person he is and how much potential he has. That he knows how much we love and believe in him. That he knows, no matter where I am, with him or not, that I he's my heart!
What Jaxon Loves: Lighting McQueen, Spiderman, Guitar Hero, Pop Tarts, Alvin & the "Chicmunks"
My Favorite Moment: Every single time he tells me "Mommy you're my best friend!" (Even when he's trying to get out of being in trouble!)
My WISH for Jaxon: That he grows up knowing what joy he has brought to my life. That he knows how much I love him and of all children in heaven to be blessed with for my last child...I couldn't have been blessed with one greater or more sweeter. He's my Pookie!